I haven't posted here as much anymore since there just isn't enough time in the day to sit down and write my thoughts on things. Even more so when I barely have any time for my hobbies and I'm still doing badly in some of my classes. I just don't know what to do and it scares me because it seems no matter what I do I'm doomed to failure at college.

I could go more into it, but I have to get to sleep. I'm only up right now since I took a nap. I'm also doing a bit of research for English.

So yeah. This could potentially be as far as I'm able to go with whatever it is this is supposed to be. Fitting, I guess, since I still haven't found a goal to work towards.

I went to Zenkaikon with Adam and Frank Saturday. It was an alright con. The only problem was that the staff didn't plan on having so many people attend it so it was quite hectic. Got in a few good photos that I'll share.

( I probably should've taken more )

Oh yeah that reminds me. For Setsucon I'm going to try and be Crocodile since we are going for a One Piece group. Should be fun.

I have nothing to really update with other than lollife and that is boring. I seriously need to find a way to have an exciting life that doesn't include a lot of stress. I don't think I'll ever find such a thing.

Well, something is wrong with my laptop again. I don't know what it is, but from my looking it seems that it overheated. I haven't taken it in to be looked at by a shop since I've been really busy lately with schoolwork and all which become terribly difficult to do without a computer of your own. Oh well, I hope to get this behind me so I can start using it again and so I can catch up on the anime I've missed.

Nothing else to really update with. Last weekend Jessalyn came down and we all hung out. The Zombie Walk went off alright, but it was mostly people from the club/people that associate with the club at the event. The next day we went to Park City which is this mall and it was fun. Sunday was Infinito's and Adam having a flat tire and spending some time in K-Mart with Jessalyn while Adam and Carolyn fixed the tire only they didn't since they called Bill to come change the tire and the two of us were in K-Mart for a while for really no reason but it was all fun.

Oh yeah! I scheduled my classes. The most interesting class I'm taking next semester is a Medieval History class. I figured it'd be a good way to finish off my Humanities credit since I've always been interested in the subject. Cool beans. I also have psychology which is going to be annoying because I predict that I'll have to write so many essays and I dislike that immensely.

I think that's pretty much my time until now. Fun stuff, really. I might say otherwise but it is all fun.

Didn't do much yesterday. Just went to class and Anime Club. Brandon finally showed up again and quite a few of the club wanted to impeach him. He wasn't and so all effort is going into the Zombie Walk. I guess that's good.

Jazz was canceled since the prof was sick. Chris and I went to Jumbo China with another guest. Good time there as always. After we got back, I just passed out asleep until about nine or so. Then about two hours later I went with Chris and all them to Anthony's to hang out. I didn't do much there.

That was yesterday. Today was not waking up in time for either Chinese or English. That's terrible and I need to stop doing that. I'm still tired even after all of the sleep I got.

Oh well, at least this song is keeping me extremely happy.

The past week hasn't been all that special. It mainly consisted of me getting some loose ends tied up for Anime Club. I did pick up Brutal Legend on Thursday and have generally been playing that nonstop. It's fun but feels so short even when I'm running around trying to get everything.

Best part of the week was probably yesterday. Why?

( Here's why )

Who would have thought that becoming the Vice President of Anime Club would've brought so much stress?

I thought that being Vice President would have been a fun affair since I believed that the Anime Club was quite organized and could do things in a timely manner. Whoops. Now here I am taking up whatever slack I can since I don't want this club to go under. This include being pretty much the only person that was at the Zombie Walk table sign up last week (which, by the way, we should have the table again this week but it isn't there so I need to go in tomorrow and fix this up with Campus Life,) wondering were any and all information about the ZW is since the Pres said he'd take care of some things like custom shirts and all but there's been no update about that so I've checked a bit online and found two places to check out sometime this week since I believe that I'd need to meet with them this week in order for the shirt to be at the ZW, trying to clear up Anime Club not having a room during our meeting times because of some intentional fuck up with Campus Life, needing to reserve the windows at Tully's so we can draw on them for the ZW, wondering when we're going to get the ball rolling on registering for Setsucon and even wondering if we're doing anything for Zenkaikon, and finally wondering just how I can make the meetings better.

Y'know, almost like I am the President.


Thankfully Donald, Frank, and Adam have been a huge help in just trying to get our shit together. I'll be more proactive in this whole ordeal so that we can all get on the ball.

I just finished watching Gurren-hen. It was pretty good for the most part and reminded me of the magic I felt back when I first watched Gurren Lagann. The Yoko fanservice fight was a bit much, though.

Other than that, I didn't really do much this weekend. I cleaned up my room a bit and I also got soe ore food. I seem to have a diet consisting mainly of noodles and hot pockets now. Stuff tastes good, I must say.

Yeah, I don't know why I'm posting either.

( Who comments the most on this journal? )

Also I've had a cold for the last couple of weeks. This cold has been one of the worst I've had in my recent memory. It is just sapping all the energy out of me. It sucks since from now on I'm going to be going on the bus again to get to campus. Then again, having to take the bus sucks in and of itself since now my days are now shortened. Especially on Wednesdays. On the bright side this will force me to finish up work days before it is due.

And really, my days have been nothing more than go to campus, come back, maybe hang out with some friends, and then sleep. Well, the last week had a lot of stress due to Anime Club and how much bullshit we are put through by Campus Life.

So now I find gals with pigtails appealing.

Well, gals with pigtails with a hat on in a green sweater and from behind looks a lot like the gal from NYAF.






Why don't we cut the bullshit and just say that I'm still thinking about that gal from NYAF even though by all rights and means I shouldn't? There probably would be more remarks about this and how terrible I am since I know nothing about the gal and probably messed up the only chance I'll ever get to see her and delve into why it is all silly without ever writing about anything but I'm a bit too tired from Anime Club activities to say all that.

So I'll just leave it at that I have about a year to get into shape and look good so I could have the slightest chance of maybe seeing her again should I go up to New York for the NYCC.

A Friday night and all I'm going to be doing is finally watch Do You Remember Love. Though I guess I could save actually watching it for an unofficial Anime Club meeting.

A thought occurred to me not to long before writing this that I have seven months until I'm free from a promise I made in haste. It's kinda silly to look back on now since no one in their right mind would ever believe such a stupid and desperate attempt for anything, really. I could keep up with the promise even though I kind of am without even trying. It's not my fault I'm terrible at talking with cute gals. To be perfectly honest, some part of me still hopes after all of this time. Impossibilities aside, it's sorta became this twisted safety net. If ever I fail, all I really need to do is remind myself that I still have that day to look forward to getting chewed out again.

Man my luck with gals is terrible. In fact, I could say that it is disasteriffic!


In slightly less boring and stupid talk, I've got nothing. Very standard week with nothing really done. Well, Chris has a PS3 now so I bought Valkyria Chronicles for the hell of it.

A Sunday filled with reading about Persona 4 and watching a playthrough of it? I don't know if that is a Sunday wasted or a Sunday gained.

( I decided that this was going to be another picture post since they are generally worth a thousand words; or so I'm told. )

That's all. I've got to finish homework so that I can get on top of things then maybe even start reading ahead for some classes.

So I went to NYAF, right? It was a pretty fun time. Let's have as close to a day by day run down that I can remember.

Friday was a lot of driving to get out there. There's not much to talk about that aspect, but when we finally got to Jessalyn's place everything started getting into motion. We had to go to the train but got there late since Jessalyn thought it a good idea to go shopping before we got there. So we waited around for the bus, only Adam and I ventured off to get some food. Then we rode a train that took forever. Then was the convention! We kinda all just did our own thing. The biggest thing that happened today with regards to me was that I noticed that there was this cute gal going around. I told Adam and Carolyn about her and Adam spent around the next thirty minutes trying to encourage me to talk to her. When I finally did speak to her, I kinda lost it and just high-tailed it away. Sucks to be me, I guess.

Only other major thing on that day was this cosplay variety show that Jessalyn was a part of. She did a skit as Ranka and Miku and she got Kanye West'd after her Miku skit. Then we got on a really late train and didn't get back until around 2 in the morning.

Now it is time for Saturday! This day was really filled and it was a complete chore to walk around the dealer's room. Anyway, I pretty much started off the convention somehow noticed that the gal from the day before was around the stairs we were going down. I didn't really feel like doing anything at all with that so I just continued on with the convention as usual. This day was mainly walking around and taking some pictures. The biggest thing this day was the Persona cosplay group meeting. Well, what happened before it, really. Anyway, we all gathered in the front of the con and we were all talking when I looked outside and saw someone standing there smoking. I keep staring and then I realize that it is Tomino! I go a little bit crazy and eventually he walks in the building and I'm dragged by Jessalyn to go get a picture with him but he walked off fast. Sucks that I messed up something on this day as well.

The Persona shoot was pretty cool and I got some interesting shots. The next big thing was the masquerade which wasn't all that cool, but was interesting. Oh yeah, gal from Friday was sitting in the row behind us but like I was going to do anything.

Sunday! We walked Jessalyn's friend Steph to the bus terminal so she could go on home and then we go to the con. It was a chill day mainly filled with me walking around in circles getting shots of the best cosplay I could find since all of this time I was using Jessalyn's camera since I forgot my battery. At the beginning Jessalyn did a karaoke skit, but it went wrong since her PSP wasn't working right so she sang her song without the backing music. She did extremely well despite her being scared on the stage. I played a game of Blazblue but got utterly defeated. I lost the other three for a while until I suddenly find them out of the blue. We then just sat around and relax until the con was over. Somewhere along the way Carolyn got herself a model kit of Lancelot from Code Geass. Adam and I pooled some money together to get these two figurines that need some work done to them for $10. The best part of Sunday was hanging out with Jessalyn's family before we went on our way. Her little brothers are silly as all and they pretty much believe that my name is Ringo Starr.

And here I am after a boring Monday where I went to a budget request meeting for Anime Club.

I have nothing to really update with at all. So have an I SABOS! icon post.

Boring classes are kinda boring. Cruise control for the weeks and all. I just got to step up in English and Calc. The rest are fine. Jazz is almost too fine. I suspect that Religious Studies will be as well.

Speaking of RLST, there's a cute gal in the class. Sadly, she seems to text quite a lot so I'll take that as a sign that she has a boyfriend. Well, not like it would have mattered all that much. She's kinda 'outta my league.' Which reminds me, there was this cute gal at DQ when I stopped in there with Chris and Vanessa the other day. It is so weird that I need to know the gal in order to gain enough confidence to flirt/ask them out/whateveritisthatpeopledothatIusedtodo.

I guess that Adam, Carolyn, and perhaps even Jessalyn might have a side mission/fun time mission during NYAF to try and get me with someone, but I know that won't really work. I'll go along with it as best I can, but I know that at some point I know that I'll be so off put by the whole thing that I'll just want no part of it. Dunno how I'll ever fix my 'crisis' or 'mental block' or whatever. I guess that ultimately this is all about the status quo and I'm reluctant to go into new territory simply because i haven't been there at all.

Haha, I don't think eccentricity alone will get me much of anywhere.

Today was kind of a fun day. A change of pace from the norm, I know. Chinese wasn't all that much and neither was Calc. The fun really started with Anime Club. I was elected to be Vice President, though I don't know if it is saying much anymore since the club is so small. Then the whole meeting was just me being hilarious. Jazz was boring as well. The real fun started after Jazz when I was just hanging out in the MPR.

We were talking about gay guys with Donald and how they view sex/sexual activities. This then went on to how Brandon was afraid to penetrate anything other than a vagina. This finally lead to talking about how I have no ladyfriend. After a bit, Chris, Adam, Rossi, and I went to the mall since they were dead set to get me a ladyfriend. The only problem was that I wasn't letting any of that happen so I ruined their plans completely.

And now I have got to buckle down and complete an entire power point for tomorrow in English. This will be completely fun.

There was nothing really of interest yesterday. Just went to jazz and played a bit of Rock Band 2 since it was brought in. That's really about all that happened yesterday.

Right now I'm planning on what I'm going to be doing for my English presentation. Shouldn't be all that hard. Oh, I'm also listening to several of the songs from the WET soundtrack. The songs are really awesome and I love them.

Oh yeah, sometime today or tomorrow I'll be hanging with Adam and Carolyn so we can plan what panels we are going to at New York Anime Fest. This will probably include a speaker phone convo with Jessalyn since it would be terrible if she wasn't included in the planning.

Today was yet another boring school day. I hadn't finished the homework in Chinese, but luckily the prof collects it at the end of class. So I worked on that the entire time and got it finished. I then went to work on my essay, but ended up in a debate about what actually constitutes "art" and saw the preview for the new Tron movie. Then I finished up my essay just in time to have it peer reviewed in English.

Chris and I took a trip to Wal-mart and I bought enough foodstuffs to last me for two weeks or so. We wanted to go to Infinito's for pizza, but Jaque called Chris up and wanted to go as well. So we had to get Chris' check and then cash it then pick up Jaque. Problem was he didn't tell us we needed to go get his check. He tells us that his bank is closed so he can't cash his check. Cool, so we do that and start heading out to get pizza when he informs us that we need to go cash his check. Huh?

So we did and finally got to eat some great pizza. Then we came back and I played some TBRB and then popped in RB2 and downloaded some songs and played them. And here I am not doing much and having game ADD due to my PSP. The thought of me having a PSP is still kinda weird. Tomorrow I'm going in early to play TBRB during Gaming Guild since Waffles is bringing in his set. It should be nice to finally sing some songs in the game.

Oh yeah, still no orange gal. That's lame.

So Wednesday, right? Nothing new at all. Just classes. Calc was fun. I'm beginning to think that the prof is crazy or something. He just goes off on tangents and pretty much yells at students when they get a problem wrong. It is hilarious. Jazz was boring since we only listened to some music. Religious Studies is still a snorefest and I actually fell asleep during the class this time. Sadly the class only gets interesting in the last thirty minutes.

Oh yeah, orange gal? Nothing new at all. Didn't see her or I didn't see her wearing orange. This is lame and I'm beginning to hate this silly chase. It gives no hope at all, really. I wish there was someone that I could easily get with, but I'm not that lucky. I'll just have to put in work to get with a gal and that's kinda lame.

In a weird twist, I talked with Erica today. Sure, it was just saying hello but that is more than any of the other times we've passed by each other. That was cool.

I've eaten nothing but a bag of Dorritos today. And I've only drank water from a fountain. Perhaps in the future I should bring some money with me on Wednesdays so I don't go mad.

Sorry I'm a bit late in posting this, but I've been doing things today. Things like nearly completely bombing my Chinese test. Or getting about a 70 on my Calc test. Or just doing nothing in English.

That pretty much sums up the college day. Between English and my Calc test, Chris, Vanessa, and I went to the Chinese Buffet. The place it pretty awesome and I wish I had known about it sooner. They had so many different types of chicken that I was really pleased. I joked around saying that the place could only be better by it being a maid cafe, which could be true. I was also joking about hitting on the one cute waitress there, but that's more because I felt silly. And because she was cute.

After the Calc test, Chris and I pretty much downloaded some PSP themes to get our PSPs awesome. Too bad a lot of the ones I downloaded weren't that good. The only decent one I downloaded today was this one that mimicked the Altimit OS from the first four .Hack// games. Oh well. Then the three of us went to Anthony's house where I just mainly played Dissidia and we all made a lot of jokes.

In other news, I've got to finish up an essay tomorrow, wash my clothes, work on an English presentation, and more or less start actually studying instead of thinking it is all so easy. It's a terrible habit I have and to succeed and do what I want I need to do that which I've never mostly done. So yeah, studying will be a bit rocky at the beginning, but the grades will more than make up for it.

Also no orange gal again. I'm hoping for tomorrow since that would be when I first saw her. Please, please, please, please be cold enough tomorrow for some people to wear a jacket.

So about today, eh? Not much other than classes thus far. Chinese was alright since it was just review for the quiz tomorrow. Calc was also review for the quiz tomorrow. Though Calc was a bit funny since I was late and the prof asked if I was late due to calling my mother. I said it was and that I also told her I loved her and he said that I was a good man. Jazz was kinda boring since we're just starting with ragtime, but I guess it was cool since I shut my eyes and could imagine someone playing the music on a piano.

Anime Club went terrible since we found out that we don't actually have the room we used to. So we now have the MPR. It also seems that Frank and I might be co-Vice Presidents, but that's more because the club really needs people helping out. Also Gallagher hates us.

Not much else to say. I still haven't seen the orange gal around at all.

Oh yeah, I'm running on about three hours of sleep. I'm awesome.

And I'm listening to The Dethalbum II right now. It is alright but the screams aren't that good.