Just going to have an update so that there is one. Guess I'll talk about one of the big things right now which is me trying to lose weight. I'm doing decently well thus far, I think. The last time I weighed myself was Wednesday night and I was 277. Today I weighed myself again and I was 269.6. I did a lot of walking around Thursday and Friday so I guess it is to be expected. It also helps that through the past week I've walked around every night for at least an hour and a half.

I've been eating decently well and have switched to just drinking water. I'm not at the point where I cook all of my meals as I still eat noodles every now and then, but it should be good.

I don't know what else to say other than I think Sundays will be my resting days since I'll focus on my studies then.

So, uh, yeah. Doing decently with one aspect of changing myself for the better.

The whole loving myself thing is going decently well. I'm keeping a positive outlook, at least. Though I totally need to get a rubber band and wear it at all times. Pulling it back and letting go when I think bad about myself might make me end up without a functional wrist! But it'll be an attempt to go forward. And right now, that's what counts.

Not much to really say. I had this thought about other people and how I keep trying to force my way into their lives. If I find a group or just a handful of people then I continually try to be with them or somehow involve myself with them because of some fear that I'll just get left behind. Somewhere along the way this line of thinking worsened and got to the point where I thought of myself as more a third person viewing their lives rather than living my own. It'd be like I lived to be with them just so I see their lives. That's a terrible way to look at things and I'm going to try and stop it. It's probably a great deal more fun to not know where our lives will meet.

So I just got to live my life the way I want to. That won't be a problem at all, I think. If anything, I'm good at doing things my way.


Oh yeah, I'm starting to make the Noel icons now so maybe I'll change out the Yuna ones since it'll be another turning point in my life like when I changed my journal's layout. Yeah, I like that.

So after the events of today and looking around online, I think I might have tinnitus. It makes sense to what I've experienced before and today was just stupid.

To explain, many times during my life I've had this near constant ringing in my ears, or rather my right ear. In the hearing tests they've done during elementary school, I couldn't score well on them since I could hear a ringing in the silence. Every so often the hearing in my right ear would dampen, much like when you have water in them or headphones on and the ringing would come in loud and clear and just hurt. I figured that this was normal since it happened so infrequently.

That is until lately. It has been happening at least once every two days for the past several months. It annoys me greatly when it happens during the day and even at night keeping me awake. Though today was the worst offender since it happened four times. Twice on my walk home from class, once in class, and once during the drive to class.

From what I'm reading, it isn't too big a thing. Though it does suggest to change how I clean my ears since cotton swabs can just agitate the problem. I should probably go back to the bigger noise canceling headphones since the earbud ones might be agitating it as well.

I'm going to have to get this checked out when I'm back in Vegas or something. It's kinda scary.

This week is coming to a close pretty nicely. It started off not that well but got a bit better. By the time Wednesday rolled around, it was very bad. I cheered up and had others cheer me up and the rest of the week started to go by again. Then Friday morning happened and I just felt very down since my plan for this school semester went up in smoke. Luckily, hanging with a friend was what I needed to clear my head and once again reaffirm my goals and conviction. Hopefully this time it'll end up sticking. Tonight ended up pretty well since it was DnD night and provided an outlet for my creative side, even if it wasn't as grand as previous gatherings.

So here I am at the realization that I need to tone down my social life (as pathetic as it actually is) in order to do better with my classes. This means that I need to be online less and studying more. I'm going to have all of the books I need with me at all times so I can rotate what I'm studying during my free time. This might seem like it's going too far in the opposite direction, but saving the bulk of my social life for Friday and Saturday sounds pretty reasonable. Saturday is DnD night so that'll be very refreshing and Friday might just end up being a weekly hang out with Jessalyn, Carolyn, Adam, and I. Whichever of them are free and wish to hang. I'd also have the times at night when I can just go upstairs and hang out with Chris for a bit. In the end, I think it all balances out.

At least I hope it will.

I also just need to relax a bit and stop getting overwhelmed with everything. All I need to do is get done what needs to get done and that's that. So yeah, basically do what I should've from the start and also work in somehow time for improving myself both mentally and physically. Shouldn't be all that hard.

I totally feel like taking up time before my next class by posting something, but I have no real clue as to what I can post. I guess I can talk about college itself even though I want to use this as an escape? Sure, I'll go with that.

For the most part, this semester is alright. The only difficult classes I have are Chinese and Calc. Calc is difficult because I need to continually make sure I'm up to date and because by now I have very little confidence in my ability to do this type of math. Chinese is difficult because I have no god damn clue how I'm supposed to retain any of this. Memorization is easy enough, but it doesn't help all too much on the tests and I feel like an idiot in the class since I have to always say that I don't understand. Oh well.

The other classes are alright. Psych is starting to piss me off since the prof is annoying. At the beginning of every class she is all "this class is difficult and some of you don't understand this so you should change your study habits or just drop the class." The thing? This class is easy. Honestly, I haven't taken psych before but this stuff all just feels self explanatory yet she keeps being annoying. Which reminds me that I need to catch up reading the textbook. Huh. My history class is pretty cool in that I'm learning some interesting things, but the prof just puts me to sleep. That is a bad thing since I do like the information but he just drones on and on and on and on and on and on and on and then I'm asleep.

CompSci? Haha, I hope I get to test out of it or else I'm going to be bored out of my mind and waking up far too early than I should be. Prof is still a cool guy, it's just that I know the material for the semester already.

I guess I'm just too jaded or something. I should be studying right now and I should be studying a bit more than I already am since the internet isn't all that wonderful a place anymore. Too bad I have a Calc test tonight or else I really would get going on that. At least I get to study Calc!

There's a pretty decent Gunpla sale going on at HLJ! Some of the kits I want are marked decently low! Too bad I just bought myself a PS3 or else I'd be all over this like you wouldn't believe. I might get a single kit. Maybe. I don't know.

Ah hell, I have enough for that MG Exia that I've wanted for a while now. Why not get it? Also got a little something extra as a surprise. It's a neat little one that I'm sure will go over decently well.

Haha, I need to stop having hobbies that cost so much.


I was going to update about something else but Gunpla totally took over my mind so that's all you get.

Update time since I feel like wasting some minutes!

I got myself a PS3 two days ago! It isn't the magical, wonderful, end all device that everyone kept saying, but it is pretty cool. Yeah, I got the slim model, but I don't really care all that much. I picked up a copy of White Knight Chronicles as well since I needed something to play. I am enjoying it quite a lot even if it isn't the BEST GAME EVER. It plays solidly and I'm quite happy for that. I can't wait to be busting heads with Valkyria Chronicles sometime at a later date.

Oh yeah, my PSN is LinkSLeonhart in case any of you are interested. I'll probably be picking up Blazblue for it sometime soonish when I can actually justify it. For now my money is for food!

I also ordered a replacement screen for my PSP. I've been really aching to play it again and play Project DIVA which is what I primarily played anyway. I have no clue how I'm supposed to get the DLC that's going to come out, but I will! It'll come in about two weeks so I'm real happy for that!

I also preordered FFXIII today. Should at least be a fun time. Got all of Spring Break to really enjoy it.

Nothing much else to say. Valentine's Day is tomorrow! I'm going to be hanging out with friends! Woohoo, no lurking ronery threads for me! I feel better than them, anyway.

And now I'm off to play some more WKC

I am thinking very hard if I should change my LJ to "The one obsessed with Noel Vermillion." It fits better since I'm far more obsessed since god damn I have "hands off the panda!" as my text tone! Also both my desktop and phone backgrounds are of Noel.

But I am just too afraid to change it. It's sorta like Yuna has become me over these years or something. I know I could just upgrade my account, but I'd only be doing that for a few icons that I haven't even made yet anyway!

Oh well, I'll probably use this more if I upgraded my account so I'll still think about it. 'Cause I still have to make the Noel icons before I do anything which gives me plenty of time to ponder over this.

Today is a good time to update since I had such an awesome day yesterday! Let's recap, shall we?

I woke up not really wanting to wake up or to go to CompSci. I had to since I didn't go on Monday or Wednesday and I don't want to seem like I did last year. It just so happens that the bus was20 minutes late so I was waiting outside in the cold for nearly half and hour. That really, really sucked. Oh well, CompSci itself was very boring. I just wanted to get the class over and done with. With any luck I'll be able to get an A on the final and just test out. That frees up my Fridays for either studying or fun and games! Hooray!

After CompSci I went to the MPR and hung around there. It was a super retro day with the Gaming Guild and they reserved the MPR from 9 to noon. At first there was just an NES playing Tetris. After a while there was an Atari. I spent some time at the NES but after the Atari came out, I went over there. Playing it was such a blast and it became even more fun when some more people came over. Best game we played? Beserker. It is an absolute riot! After a while my phone was dying and I felt that I should get back home because there wasn't much else to do at campus.

When I got back, I came up with this awesome plan: I'd walk over to Adam's, Carolyn's, and Jessalyn's place with some Chinese and hang out and eat! So I pretty much did so, even though in hindsight I should have gotten something for Carolyn. Whoops! Anyway, I got there and had such a great time. The conversation while eating was mainly about daily updates and life going ons, but it was fun. Adam had to leave for work and so Jessalyn and I were left to our own devices. We did the most sensible thing that any two adults would do.

Karaoke.

We pretty much did karaoke for the remainder of the day/night. Carolyn came back after a while, but she was there only for a bit and went back to her mother's to get shit done. Then we took a break and just chatted about life, pretty much. Adam finally got off of work and it was it became a bonanza of teasing Jessalyn. That held many, many, many laughs from all three of us. Carolyn then came back and things settled down and I ended up staying the night.

So yeah, the day ended up being a blast. I had no idea that this much fun could be born of random plans. I now know and I'm probably far better for it.

Pre-Con Report I guess

I only had one class today and that really was terrible since it was CompSci and I did nothing at all. I've mainly been on the bus all day which sucks. Though I did get myself some Yellow Submarine so that was really great. Haven't had Gumby's Pizza yet though I will get some. The ride up was kinda boring, but also fun.

I also got to see a bit of Main Campus. The place is so much more vast in every single aspect to Berks. It's crazy. It feels like Berks is a high school while Main is the real deal of colleges. Their pool hall looks like an actual one with dimmed lights and everything. "The Hub" is a central place where a lot of food stuff and lounging is located. It is huge and seems like it is nearly the size of all of the buildings of Berks. Just really crazy.

Also fun was meeting with some people I met last year at the convention. Though I barely recognized them and they probably didn't know me, it was still cool to see that time does in fact move forward. Other than Vic being at the con, it will be quite fun. Frank and I are teaming up for Rock Band Idol. We need to find at least one more person and we will crush the competition and bring home another award.

I will try to update this report stuff nightly. The Sunday update will probably be just a picture of the RBI award since that is mostly what I'm doing that day. Oh, I'm really looking forward to the yuri panel that Carolyn and Jessalyn are hosting. Knowing the two of them, it should be cute.

So I'm back in PA after quite the restful break. Coolness all around that mainly consisted of me sleeping for long periods of time. Not quite old man levels of sleep, but it did feel like that. I haven't done much since I got back other than laundry and playing some Bayonetta. Good times, really.

Today is my get shit done day. What do I have to get done? More laundry, but that can wait for a bit. The main things I need to get done are shopping and cleaning up my room. The room is a horrid mess and it makes me sad to see it. I shall get it into tip top shape! I might even rearrange the place a bit, or at least my figures and all. Shopping consists of mainly food, but it also contains hangers. With all the new clothes I got for Christmas/Birthday I need quite a few more hangers. Also I need to get another bus pass!

That's really all my plans for the day. So I'll close this off with a picture of the two new beauties that waited for me to get back!

Happy Birthday Noel!

It is the 24th and I'm finally back home in Vegas. Right now I must say that it is definitely good to be back. There's one thing nagging at me, though. I think it is more or less to do with how/who I used to be.

Pretty bold words here, huh? Let's clarify that up. Right now I'm a naive little kid trying to learn how to be an adult. Before when I was living here I was a naive little kid loafing about and playing at adult. Big difference there, methinks. This is all in reference to my living on my own. Sure, I still have pretty big ties and am not really independent yet, but I am far more than I ever was back here in Vegas. In Reading, I plan my days out, I decide if I want this orange shirt on sale, I make choices, I regret, I stress to all hell. You know what?

That feels good.

Is that growing up? Is that being responsible? Hell if I know, I'm still just a naive kid. I do know that it is crazy to look back and see just how stagnant I was only two years ago. I thought I knew it all and was blinded by myself. It is probably no surprise to anyone that I have a huge ego that I try my damnedest to keep in check. Why? I tried the arrogant ass thing and I wasn't happy with it. Sadly the damage was done so I'm trying to repair it all. That's along with my continual betterment of myself, of course. How that is going I'll never know as there are always new obstacles.

In all with college, I've grown in some areas and regressed in others. It's a balancing act, really. Will I ever get it right? I'll get back to you when I have a successful career and a beautiful wife. As for now, there's no real way to know. I can only own up to my mistakes and learn from them.

In fact, I think one of these days I'll make a list of what I think is wrong with me just so I can see it on paper. Then I might work with others to get it down to what is the truth and what is just me putting myself down. Then I'll work on fixing them. It can only help, right?

Still nothing to really update with. I went to Chris' aunt's house for Thanksgiving. In other words I went to Cassandra's place. It was jammed with people I didn't know but they are a silly bunch. I also got to meet Cassandra's boyfriend who seems like a swell enough guy. Though he did beat me in pool.

And then we all played Mafia.

Other than that, it has been a week of vegging out and playing Sonic Unleashed. I beat it and now have no drive to play it since I only have bullshit levels/missions to clear. Forget that.

But yeah, nothing significant in my life has occurred. I have college that I'm doing and I hang out with friends. It's a decent enough life when I'm not being dicked over because of bullshit on tests or when my electronic devices start crapping out on me. As Brooks & Dunn say, it could only get better if I put a gal in it. Sadly, that part still seems like it is a bit off. Sucks having no options, really.

Oh well, at least I have fightsticks on the way! Hooray fightan games.

I haven't posted here as much anymore since there just isn't enough time in the day to sit down and write my thoughts on things. Even more so when I barely have any time for my hobbies and I'm still doing badly in some of my classes. I just don't know what to do and it scares me because it seems no matter what I do I'm doomed to failure at college.

I could go more into it, but I have to get to sleep. I'm only up right now since I took a nap. I'm also doing a bit of research for English.

So yeah. This could potentially be as far as I'm able to go with whatever it is this is supposed to be. Fitting, I guess, since I still haven't found a goal to work towards.

I went to Zenkaikon with Adam and Frank Saturday. It was an alright con. The only problem was that the staff didn't plan on having so many people attend it so it was quite hectic. Got in a few good photos that I'll share.

( I probably should've taken more )

Oh yeah that reminds me. For Setsucon I'm going to try and be Crocodile since we are going for a One Piece group. Should be fun.

I have nothing to really update with other than lollife and that is boring. I seriously need to find a way to have an exciting life that doesn't include a lot of stress. I don't think I'll ever find such a thing.

Well, something is wrong with my laptop again. I don't know what it is, but from my looking it seems that it overheated. I haven't taken it in to be looked at by a shop since I've been really busy lately with schoolwork and all which become terribly difficult to do without a computer of your own. Oh well, I hope to get this behind me so I can start using it again and so I can catch up on the anime I've missed.

Nothing else to really update with. Last weekend Jessalyn came down and we all hung out. The Zombie Walk went off alright, but it was mostly people from the club/people that associate with the club at the event. The next day we went to Park City which is this mall and it was fun. Sunday was Infinito's and Adam having a flat tire and spending some time in K-Mart with Jessalyn while Adam and Carolyn fixed the tire only they didn't since they called Bill to come change the tire and the two of us were in K-Mart for a while for really no reason but it was all fun.

Oh yeah! I scheduled my classes. The most interesting class I'm taking next semester is a Medieval History class. I figured it'd be a good way to finish off my Humanities credit since I've always been interested in the subject. Cool beans. I also have psychology which is going to be annoying because I predict that I'll have to write so many essays and I dislike that immensely.

I think that's pretty much my time until now. Fun stuff, really. I might say otherwise but it is all fun.

Didn't do much yesterday. Just went to class and Anime Club. Brandon finally showed up again and quite a few of the club wanted to impeach him. He wasn't and so all effort is going into the Zombie Walk. I guess that's good.

Jazz was canceled since the prof was sick. Chris and I went to Jumbo China with another guest. Good time there as always. After we got back, I just passed out asleep until about nine or so. Then about two hours later I went with Chris and all them to Anthony's to hang out. I didn't do much there.

That was yesterday. Today was not waking up in time for either Chinese or English. That's terrible and I need to stop doing that. I'm still tired even after all of the sleep I got.

Oh well, at least this song is keeping me extremely happy.

The past week hasn't been all that special. It mainly consisted of me getting some loose ends tied up for Anime Club. I did pick up Brutal Legend on Thursday and have generally been playing that nonstop. It's fun but feels so short even when I'm running around trying to get everything.

Best part of the week was probably yesterday. Why?

( Here's why )

Who would have thought that becoming the Vice President of Anime Club would've brought so much stress?

I thought that being Vice President would have been a fun affair since I believed that the Anime Club was quite organized and could do things in a timely manner. Whoops. Now here I am taking up whatever slack I can since I don't want this club to go under. This include being pretty much the only person that was at the Zombie Walk table sign up last week (which, by the way, we should have the table again this week but it isn't there so I need to go in tomorrow and fix this up with Campus Life,) wondering were any and all information about the ZW is since the Pres said he'd take care of some things like custom shirts and all but there's been no update about that so I've checked a bit online and found two places to check out sometime this week since I believe that I'd need to meet with them this week in order for the shirt to be at the ZW, trying to clear up Anime Club not having a room during our meeting times because of some intentional fuck up with Campus Life, needing to reserve the windows at Tully's so we can draw on them for the ZW, wondering when we're going to get the ball rolling on registering for Setsucon and even wondering if we're doing anything for Zenkaikon, and finally wondering just how I can make the meetings better.

Y'know, almost like I am the President.


Thankfully Donald, Frank, and Adam have been a huge help in just trying to get our shit together. I'll be more proactive in this whole ordeal so that we can all get on the ball.